Mean Kitty Kitty

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I came across these VERY cool pictures in the Daily Mail. Odin lives at the Six Flags Discovery Kingdom Zoo in Vallejo, near San Francisco. He is about 10ft long from nose to tail, and is an excellent swimmer. White tigers - the colour is caused by an unusual genetic combination - are rare in the wild, although there are several dozen in zoos.

Imagine swimming and seeing this coming at you while scuba diving... CRAZY

Here he looks so sweet!

Hidden Palms

Hidden Palms sounds more like a porno than a new television show on The CW, but it premieres tonight. I was reading a review in the NY Post and was intrigued. As I do everyday here at work, I logged onto tv.yahoo.com and The CW had the pilot right up there on the front page.

It’s from Kevin Williamson who created Dawson’s Creek. I remember when Dawson’s first came out I was really into the show. I would go over to the twins house and watch it with them in their basement. In college, we would have Dawson’s nights on Tuesdays and my favorite character was of course, Jack McPhee.

The show has this Dawson’s Creek / The OC feel to it, which is what The CW was looking for. There is plenty of teen guys with their shirts off, girls in bathing suits and teeneagers trying to find themselves.

Johnny Miller, the main character, moves to Palm Springs after getting out of rehab at 16 years old. He witnesses his father killing himself in his old house in Seattle. His mother remarries and move with her new husband. Johnny meets his next door neighbor, Cliff… Greta the hot girl who used to date Eddie.

It turns out that Eddie killed himself and Johnny now lives in Eddie’s room. It’s kind of crazy that Johnny is 16 and fresh out of rehab but it shows a string male teen character staying sober even though Cliff likes to get messed up.

I am sure the Williamson will throw a gay character into the show. Somewhere down the line if this show survives.

The show got me thinking about gay characters on TV and which ones I loved the most. Here is my list:

1. Jack McPhee – Dawson's Creek – THE WB

I remember when Jack came out when he was forced to read his poem to the class. Pacey defends him and shows that he is a true friend. According to Williamson, he intended for Dawson to come out of the closet, but Jack’s character did.

I identified with Jack so much. Only two friends of mine knew that I was “bi” at the time and it was great seeing another teen going through a lot of what I was going through. Jack, like me, also played football.

What got me down was the Kerr Smith did not like playing the gay character. He would only do so many “gay kisses” during the season. His story line as far as boyfriends and such were very limited. Still, a gay high school football player who goes on to college was someone that I looked up to.
2. Thad Guerwitcz – Playmakers - ESPN

Thad Guerwitcz was the tight end in the short lived ESPN “soap for men” Playmakers. Like Jack, Guerwitcz was not intended to be gay. They approached the actor, Dan Petronijevic, and he was all for playing a closeted player. The show explored what it was like for a closeted player who had a boyfriend and kept a girlfriend so no one would suspect.

I had loved the series anyway because I am a big football junkie and the show was well done. The NFL complained that the show gave its players and league a bad name. Not because of the gay story line, but because of drug abuse, domestic abuse and dark image it gave the league.

Thad ended up being forced out of the closet by his former boyfriend showing up to practice and calling him out. Guerwitcz comes out to his team officially in the locker room after he was told that he would be placed on the disabled list. After he comes out, he is told he was the only player selected to the All Star Game.

Memorial Day

So I am at my parents place right now, laying on the couch with my two parents dogs. I had an interview yesterday and it went really well. I walked into the networks building and was impressed with what I saw. I got a tour of the newsroom, its new digital center, and saw a bunch of edit rooms and control rooms. There is a lot going on and I sat down with the producer and talked about what I have done working for a little over 2 years. He was very impressed and told me that he wanted to hire me for the open position that I didn't get but the job was given to someone with more experience... but he wants me there regardless.

Made me happy. I came back to my parents house and hung out with family and went to this big outdoor bar in Milford CT. So much fun.

I have been having writers block lately and it sucks. Hope everyone has a good weekend! I am partying at my cousins house tonight.

Someone Please Help Her

Someone needs to let Diane Sawyer know that using the phrase "TEA BAG" on national television could land you FCC Fines.

Another New Yorker

Say hello to "Silly Billy". He writes the blog, Living my life in NY. He is a 32 year old gay man living in NYC as well and blogging about life in new York and his friends as well.

He recently had a Blogger Night, which I did not know about and did not attend, but would have loved to have gone. Anyway, he links to my blog and I recently started reading it and wanted to give him a HUGE shout out on Overnight NY.

Check him out and make sure to add him to your google reader. I just did!

Goodbye...

No, I am not signing off... I wanted to say goodbye to TWO of the shows I watched during the 2006/07 Television season. THE CLASS & JERICHO.

Both were left off teh CBS schedule for next season... but.. I get this from a friend of mine...

A Statement From CBS Entertainment

Below is a statement from CBS Entertainment:To the fans of Jericho:We have read your emails over the past few days and have been touched by the depth and passion with which you have expressed your disappointment. Please know that canceling a television series is a very difficult decision. Hundreds of people at the Network, the production company and the incredibly-talented creative team worked very hard to build and serve the community for this show -- both on-air and online. It is a show we loved too.Thank you for supporting Jericho with such passion. We truly appreciate the commitment you made to the series and we are humbled by your disappointment. In the coming weeks, we hope to develop a way to provide closure to the compelling drama that was the Jericho story.

Sincerely,Nina Tassler, President of CBS Entertainment

OMG, I am so excited. I am still waiting for that Commander in Chief tele-movie. So who knows what will come of this!

WEAKend

I know... It's been a couple days and I feel horrible about not updating the blog for all of you. But that's what happens when you are busy. I usually update you on my weekend antics and if anything happened of note... I always seem to find myself in situations that get akward.

Friday night I hung out with this guy Chris from work. He is a really cool guy that started work with me a few weeks ago. He played Lacrosse in college and is from Long Island. A girl that I work with was trying to figure out if he played on my team because he only had "It's complicated" listed on facebook. After talking about the Yankees and Giants I asked him one day about the whole, "It's complicated" thing and the reason it's complicated is because his girlfriend is jewish and he is not. Her parents don't want her to be with him and never want to meet him.

Well Friday night I got to meet her. I went over to Chris's place and we watched the Yankees-Mets disaster and after watched a movie just hanging out. Chris and I finished an 18 pack between us and I went home and passed out.

I woke up early Saturday monrning, grabbed a bacon, egg and cheese from this place on the corner and headed to my softball game. We split the series and I got to know a bunch of guys a lot more because we were down a few players. I am having an awesome time playing with these guys and can't wait to have a full team in a few weeks.

I came home after the game and hung out, ate some food, and layed down for a nap. Naps are amazing. Later on in the night I headed down to Chelsea for a roof top party. My straight friends have this awesome apartment that has access to the roof. I went down and saw my friend from college, hung out with the guys and was having an awesome time. It was getting late... and for some reason I was flirting with some random guy whose iPod had a lot of "gay" music on it, and this cute latino that was giving me eyes most of the night came over and started talking to me.

He asked me if I had a girlfriend and I said, "I don't fuck girls"... I remember because it made me laugh when it came out of my mouth. I had to refill my beer and headed for the keg in the hallway. He followed.

We had a conversation out in the hallway by the keg about how he loved watching Gay porn and lately it's been turning him on. The conversation quickly went from there and I was playing it cool with the guy. The latino said, "I don't think I could ever do anything with a guy..." so I responded with, "so why are you flirting with me?" and he came right back with, "because you are cute." His mouth droppped as soon as he said it because he realized he was telling the truth.

He gave me his card and told me to call him sometime. I smiled and wanted to get back inside. My friend Marissa was giving me a look and I asured her nothing was going on and that I was being a good boy. We danced some more inside and I headed out for more beer and made a trip to the roof. Looking out over 6th ave I was alone on the roof. Gathering some thoughts at 4am and the Latino came up from behind me. He wanted to talk some more.

I felt bad for him because he kept talking about how he wanted to act on his feelings and desires but couldn't because he was scared that he would like it and that would "make him gay". I listened to him and just felt bad for him. Three guys from the party came upstairs and it freaked the Latino out so he decided to leave. He told me to give him a call.

One of the guys who came upstairs I have known for a few years and we got talking about being single in New York. The other two guys had no idea that I was gay. It came up in conversation and it blew them away. One was from Australia and said that he has a few friends that would love me because I am an attractive, nice guy. I was flattered and really digging his accent even though he was straight. The sun started to come up over the buildings and the four of us finished our beers talking on the rooftop.

On my way home in the cab I looked at the latinos card. I saw his cell and decided to text him, "Nice to meet you bro, JP" 2 minutes later he called me and I didn't pick up. He left a voicemail and I haven't listened to it yet.

I guess my weekend wasn't too weak. It was awesome drinking until dawn, but I guess I can do that when I sleep at weird times of day no mater if its a Saturday or Wednesday. I slept pretty much all day and now I am awake for work. I need food.

Television

The Upfronts are this week here in New York. For those who don’t know what they are, they are the broadcast networks presenting their new shows and returning series for advertisers. I am very interested in the new pilots this season. I thought I would give you guys an idea of what I am watching this past season and what I am looking forward to next season.

2006/2007 – in no order

There were a lot of shows that I got into this season.

Grey’s Anatomy- ABC
My sister and mother got me into the show at the end of their first season. I really loved TR Knight before he came out of the closet. He had this cuteness to him and his shaggy hair was something I was really into at the time. I still enjoy the show and is a staple in my DVR

LOST - ABC
I have loved LOST since it started 3 seasons ago. Now that there is an end date to the show I think people will be back into it. Something I have noticed about the show is that a lot of people catch up by watching DVDs and watching episodes online at ABC.com

Look for LOST to start tying up some loose ends starting next season and some interesting story lines.

Desperate Housewives - ABC
Another ABC show that I am into. I really got into it after Sean Pyfrom’s character Andrew Van De Kamp came out of the closet. He had an interesting story line that I really loved about the show. Marc Cherry recently said in an interview…

"I think that he'll have some interesting gay adventures," Cherry told AfterElton.com. "Right now we're just winding down season 3, but in June the writing staff gets together and we'll talk about that. But you know, he's had such a tame year, it's time to kind of juice him up again."

Despite offering more gay adventures, Cherry—who is himself gay—said that he's not sure if Andrew is gay. "That's a debate I'm going to have with the writers," he said. "A lot of writers feel that sometimes young boys say 'bisexual' because that's 'a stop on the way to gay town.' But you know, I actually think it might be fascinating if Andrew experiments, as long as we have some interesting complications from that. I know that so many gay teenagers do 'try it' just to please their parents. So we'll see. Something shocking would happen as a result."

The actor who plays Andrew, Shawn Pyfrom, still doesn't seem comfortable with the gay stories though, and said he is happy for Andrew not to have a boyfriend because he finds filming the scenes with other men "a little awkward.

Jericho - CBS
When I read the description of the pilot I was intrigued. The storyline revolves about the residents of Jericho, a small, rural Kansas town, in the aftermath of a series of nuclear explosions across the contiguous United States. The series begins with a visible nuclear detonation of unknown origin over nearby Denver, Colorado, and a loss of power and modern communications, effectively isolating Jericho

The pivotal character is Jake Green who returns home to briefly visit his family before becoming stranded as a result of the catastrophe. After a tense reunion with his father, Mayor Johnston Green, Jake becomes a hero to Jericho by helping protect it and its residents. As Jake, along with his family and friends, work to help the town survive, they are completely unaware that one of their own residents, Robert Hawkins, knows much more about the attacks that took place than he is letting on.

The show is brilliant. I really got into it and it made me think of what would happen if the US were to be attacked with nukes. It was kind of scary in the beginning but the storylines have been great. CBS really fucked themselves (lack of a better word) when they renewed the show early in it’s run then put the show on hiatus with a fall finale.

New shows, and old like LOST, lose their steam when you get some good storylines together and then take 3 months off. It’s crazy. CBS has not picked the show back up for a second season… but I hope they do very soon.

The Office – NBC
If you don’t watch this show… you are crazy. It’s very funny. I can’t even begin to talk about how much I like this show.


24 – FOX
FOX made millions last season waiting for January 2006 to premiere the 5th season of 24. All 24 episodes back to back with a 2 night, 4 hour ORGY premiere. The 2007 season was no different. It started off as a great season. Jack was back from Chinese custody, President Palmers brother was in the White House and a nuclear bomb was set off in Valencia, CA. News outlets made a big deal about a nuke going off on American Soil and some called it the first depiction of it happening on national television. Jericho would have been the first to show it back in September 2006, but her, it’s Jack Bauer and no one really cares about a pilot episode of a show that no one had seen before.

The 6th season in 2007 has disappointed many fans, including me. They ended the regular storyline early and brought back Audrey Raines. Jack was arrested again, which I still don’t understand and CTU was yet again attacked. It seems like they took every storyline they did in Seasons 1-5 and crammed them into the 6th season with different characters.

I am still pissed off they killed Edgar last season.

How I Met Your Mother – CBS

This comedy is hysterical. For those in your mid-twenties go on CBS.com and watch this show. It seriously reminds me of my life right now and interacting with my friends that are in and out of relationships and those who are engaged. Neil Patrick Harris plays Barney, a sex crazed twenty something that is the funniest character on the show. There is an episode where he goes to meet Bob Barker because he thinks that he is his father.

I mean, come on… it’s Bob Barker… my first sentence was “Come on Down”.. I know that was Rod Rodey’s line but it reminds me of him so much.

The Class – CBS

The Class is a sitcom created by David Crane and Jeffrey Klarik, the creator of FRIENDS. Due to the overwhelming reputation of the creators, many networks (including NBC, FOX, and CBS) made bids for a full 13-episode season, prior to seeing a pilot. Ultimately, CBS won the bidding war with an undisclosed amount.

I really enjoyed the show when I first saw it. It came on after How I Met Your Mother and was a real compliment to HIMYM. It is not on the schedule for next season so who knows what will happen.

Traveler – ABC

I watched the pilot and really liked it. Did anyone else catch it? I want to know what you thought.

Law and Order: SVU
I don’t even need to really explain why I love this show.

Coming later today, some pilots that are new this TV season that I can’t wait for.

JobHUNT

Tonight at work was very entertaining. I am on the “easy” shift right now. After working months on this Hellish 12 hour shift I am now on an 8 hour shift where I get in at around midnight. I do my regular duties but at a desk secluded from the craziness from the newsroom.

I was entertained by my friend Phil up in Boston most of the night until he left me for bed. Oh well. I have some job updates for you all…

First California… I did NOT get the job. I did however make a bunch of contacts out there… most with cute guys and have sent my resume to them. As far as the interview, it went well. It went so well that I was named the primary backup. So if one of the two people reject the position, or cannot fulfill the duties of the crown… I get to take over. The producer recruiting for the position said that it happens all the time. Also, when I get out to California I could call her and talk about my career options.

Second… I interviewed for another network and have been talking to the coordinating producer for the past few months. Here is what has happened… I applied for the position back in January… he emailed me at the end of February and I interviewed in March.

I kept talking to the Producer and talked to him about once a week. I got an e-mail yesterday saying…

I wanted to let you know that we have filled the **** position. The new hire has been working as an **** for several years at various markets. You sound like a bright person who may be able to help us in the future and would like you to pay us a visit. I appreciate the interest you showed in wanting the job and you had great references. It simply came down to us hiring a person who already had the experience.

So, next Friday I have a sit down chat with this guy about possible open positions and what is available for me there. He seems very interested in recruiting me. I know many of you may be saying, “That’s not right being courted by another network…” The network has the same parent company so it would be like moving to another division. Not bad right.

Actually, both of these jobs were are with the same parent company. It’s not a bad thing… I have great pay, benefits but my hours suck balls.

Anyway, thought I would give you guys a job update. I was really bummed out the other night and a few readers (you know who you are) were very kind and said some great things to me.

I am flattered with all the nice words you guys had for me. I really appreciate it. I do know that I am a great asset to a TV Network… just need to find my niche. Thank You everyone!

Back to New York

I am sitting in the airport waiting for my flight to take off and I leave LA behind. I still have a stuffy nose but it's a lot better than what I was feeling like when I landed in LA. I am sure I will stuff back up and feel like crap when I get up in the air but oh well. I have work tonight. BLEH

I should be hearing back by tomorrow about the position. I heard back from another network about a job I have been calling about for the past few months... I didn't get it. I still don't understand why they would string me along about the position and just shoot me an e-mail and not call me and let me know. Although, the Coordinating Producer said in his e-mail that they want to bring me in again and talk about other oppertunities.

I'm excited to get back to New York. I have also made a decission that I like New York better than LA. For many reasons. Better public transportation, less traffic congestion, and most of my life is in New York. If I get the job out here I will give it serious concideration but I think that for now its NYC for me.

I hope you guys had a good weekend. I know I had a good Friday night hanging out with friends in LA and partying at this sports bar. I was with my friend Michele who was my prom date back in High School. We went and got food at Hamburger Mary's. It's a Burger joint with a gay twist. It was cool, the burger was okay, but it was a fun enviroment to be in. It was her idea to go there. Look to the next post for more.

"Hollywood"

I am having a good time. You may be thinking, "Why is JP online updating the blog? Shouldn't he be doing somthing like making out with some hot guy at a bar?" Well, JP is still feeling sick as a dog. Flying didn't make me feel any better.

I am on all kinds of different cold meds, including Mucinex to get rid of my chest congestion. I am having a good time. I saw a friend of mine who is a working actor out here He has a place in Santa Monica and it was nice to get down to the beach, walk and hang out. We went from there to his new place up in the Hollywood Hills. It is the GREATEST bacheor pad a guy could want living in LA. He has a girlfriend who is a working actress so it's not a bachelor pad in theory but still very cool. The house in the Hills is pretty sweet. He has plasma screens everywhere... 3 bedrooms and a really nice yard with a lagoon style pool. I was very jealous.

He is closing on the house now and should be able to move in soon. Until then he is still in Santa Monica. I left him with his girlfriend and met up with my friend Michele who lives off of Santa Monica Blvd in West Hollywood. For those who don't know, West Hollywood (WeHo) is a big gay area of LA. Her neighborhood is really nice and has a cute apartment.

I am trying to take it easy while I am out here which sucks because I really wanted to go out and party while I was here. I hope that with all the cold meds I am taking I will feel better to go out either Friday or Saturday night in WeHo.

Anyone with ideas on what to do to make myself feel better, please let me know. I am willing to try and do anything.

Interview in LA

I have held back enough from the blog... I have an interview in LA on Friday. Right now I am at JFK in New York waiting for my flight to board. I am racking up True Blue points with JetBlue right now...

I'm kind of excited because there is some kind of sports team waiting to get on my flight. Might be a college of some sort, can't tell what sport but they are pretty hot. If any readers want to hang out (COUGH... MATT... COUGH) shoot me a hello.

I plan on mixing this visit with a little pleasure on Friday and Saturday night. Maybe hit up Disneyland? Who knows... I can't wait to get out there and you bet I will keep you all in the loop.

Yale's 50 Most Beautiful

Rumpus, Yale's humor magazine, published it's "50 Most beautiful" Issue. I have got to say, I enjoyed some of these pictures and didn't really read much about the guys. Most of them are probably really smart and fun in the sack. Enjoy some college eye candy today!





I think most college's should do an issue like this!

The Dating Game

Loyal readers know that I am on this quest to find a guy. I gave up for a short time and right now I would love to have someone, but know that it can't be forced and that when it happens it will happen. I mentioned Rich down in the post below this as a guy I met last night. A Long Island Italian who is an actor in his spare time, enjoys sports and works in food importing. I always thought that food importing meant that you were a drug lord. He does not seem like the drug dealer type so I think I am safe from the wrath of a cartel coming after me if something bad happens.

There has been the red head down in Florida, Jesse, who wants to move to NYC. Kevin from Queens/Long Island who is moving to the East Village who wants to meet up when he moves back in the city. I doubt we will, I have tried, he never calls back and is more of the late night booty drunk call that most can relate to.

So, what is the meaning of this post? It's a guy named "Sam". I have mentioned him before on here. Not under the name Sam but will use it for this post. Sam and I met on a dating site. Not a hookup site that gross me out right now. An actual dating website that I joined a few weeks ago before I left for vacation. I set up my profile, picked my pictures with the help of a few readers and see what happened. I emailed a few people but this guy Sam sent me a message.

His profile did not have any pictures up. In his message he said that he doesn't like being judged by a few pics but by what he had to say. I was intrigued. I sent him a message back said that I agree and that I haven't had the much luck, blah blah blah.

we e-mail back and forth for about 2 weeks. One night my plans with Tony fall through and I meet Sam for a drink on the UES. We talk... find out we have a lot in common and he invites me back to his apartment for a night cap. I didn't plan on spending the night but I did. No sex was had, we were good boys. The next day he had family stuff he needed to take care of and we parted ways. We texted over the next few days, called every so often and then I went on vacation after not hearing from him for about 2 weeks.

He calls me while I was in the Magic Kingdom and we talk. About 20 minutes later he tells me to have fun on vacation and to call him when I get back into town. I get back. Call. Nothing back . I shoot him an email. Nothing. I called once more and just asked when he was up to this weekend. Nothing. yesterday I get back from my softball game and see an email waiting for me. It's Sam.

from the e-mail...

Sorry that I have been out of touch. This week was another killer. Ended up drinking the night away with my friend...I do have to let you know that I would like to still hang out with you however I am kind of seeing someone that I had met a few months back. We are not serious but I guess I can only handle seeing one person at the same time. I barely have time for him, and that is something that I am trying to work on. Sorry if I sound like a jerk, because I do like you but I had to let you know where I stand with someone else right now. Don't want ot give the wrong impression.

My first thought was that he was upfront about seeing someone. I like honesty in someone. I also think it was hard for him to let me know that he was seeing someone. Second thought was, just confsion. I thought we had something good going.

On the bright side, I met a guy last night who wants to meet up for a drink and dinner when he gets back from vacation and have been flirting with a guy who I met a few days ago. I'm lucky to be living in a city where there is a chance for me to meet guys. I know there are places where the gay population is not large and there is not much to choose from. I am going to nurse this cold/allergies/plauge and hope to get better. I am on AIM and bored.

I've got a FEVER....

and I wish more cowbell would help me out and make me feel better. I am laying in bed with sweatpants and a hoodie and I am still cold... then I break out into hot flashes. It kinda sucks. My sister graduates from college tomorrow out in New Jersey, I am very proud of her and she is moving into NYC this summer to go to grad school at Fordham.

My other sister is already almost done with grad school... and I work in television. Seriously, do they need so many degrees to work with children in schools?

I know a lot of you look forward to reading about my weekend shenanigans. I have got numerous e-mails from guys who live outside of New York who say that they wish they could have a weekend like mine sometimes. Honestly, I am having a lot of fun, but I do need to be cautious. I saw my friend Marissa last night at a roof top Margarita party in Chelsea. Some of her friends from high school live there and it's an amazing apartment. The guys are straight so don't think I am going to rooftop circut parties or anything. Marissa and I caught up on a lot of stuff and she is super paranoid that I am not being "safe". I rolled my eyes and told her that I am always safe and that I would never be that stupid.

Around 11:30 I headed to this place called Zanzibar for my friend Mary's birthday party. People from work all hanging out and drinking. It was a great time. Mary was surprised to see that i showed... "Thought you would have had better things to do. I didn't go to yours (birthday party) I hugged her, told her I wouldn't miss it because she is awesome (she really is) and partied there. Zanzibar is over in the "Hells Kitchen" area of Manhattan, which also has an up and coming gay bar scene. The three girls I was hanging out with left to head home. I wasn't feeling too hot but still wanted to hang out a little more. I headed to Therapy (the bar).

It was DEAD. This is the 2nd time I have been there in the past 2 weeks and it was dead. I guess it was just horrible timing. Oh yeah, I am by myself. I headed over to Vlada which I have written about before. It's a cool place, never really been dissappointed there. I made out with a guy from London a few months ago and we have kept in touch via Myspace so if I get tickets to see the Giants play in London I have a free place to crash.

Anyway, I order a drink from a good looking bartender nammed Jason. Eye him a little bit and head upstairs. Upstairs is usualy really crowded on Saturday nights. It was crowded and I wasn't feeling it upstairs. I headed back down to the front of the bar. Eyeing some guys, just scoping out the scene, my phone vibrates, it's Tony asking where I am at. I text him back and don't hear anything the rest of the night.

After I finish texting I notice the back of a guys head a few people down at the bar. His back is to me and I can't see his face. I think it's my buddy Rob so I text him. I see him take his phone out and look around. I head over and he is excited to see me.

Rob and I met through mutual friends. He is a big time Giants fan. We have hung out a few times, talked on the phone and nothing really ever clicked between us as far as taking it past a friendship. He is a sweet guy, funny and always talkative in a good way. We caught up on stuff that had happened that night and then out of nowhere this guy taps me on the shoulder. He is my friend from home's college roomie. I show up to a bar alone and run into two guys I know from Connecticut. Kinda funny. Anyway, he introduces me to his friend Rich who is good looking and we talk. He went to Hofstra, just moved down near Wall Street and is leaving for vacation on Monday. We talk the rest of the night till last call and then we exchange numbers and I ask him if he would like to grab dinner or lunch sometime. He agrees and I head home, drunk on cinco de mayo, seeing my friends, re-uniting with old friends and meeting new friends.

Overall, great weekend... just wish that I wasn't feeling so lousey. I will prolly call out sick tonight from work so I can go to my sisters graduation and have some kind of energy. I should not have drank last night, but it was worth it.

"Andy" from the episode

Andy from the episode of Undressed apeared in some naked photos in a book. I thought I would post them because he is just a hottie and I haven't posted any hot pictures in a while. Enjoy the pics... I know I am...

Undressed... again

I know a lot of bloggers out there have posted parts of episodes of Undressed. I have been a big fan of the series since I was in college. For most of us in the closet, this was the first time I saw many different gay characters that were very different. The straight jocks like me, the feminine guys and regular guys. It was one of the first times I really accepted that I was like these guys and I started to become more comfortable with who I was.

This was one of the first episodes of Undressed that I remember that had a gay story line. I was extremely attracted to the main character played by Nicholas Gonzalez. The end of the video has him dealing with his boyfriend and porn, which kinda ruins the brother storyline.

Undressed: Brothers
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Anyway, I thought I would share this episode that has been on my mind the past few days. If you don’t want to watch the episode and see some reaction read below…

***SPOILERS***

"He Ain't Gay, He's My Brother"
by Rick Bitzelberger, Steven S. DeKnight, Graham Flashner and Tom Crehan

Andy’s living with his boyfriend Joel and is excited to meet Andy’s brother Brick. Joel hasn’t met anyone from Andy’s family and is looking forward to meeting the macho brother who is in the Navy. Andy confesses that he is not out to his brother or anyone in his family because he is scared of what they might think and how they would react. Joel wants to know why he isn’t out and wants Andy to come out to his brother. Andy begs Joel to “stay in the closet” for the time that his brother is staying at the apartment. Joel agrees and plays along. Brick and his friend Ned show up with some beer and talk about their leave from the naval ship they serve on. There is some funny banter with being crammed on a boat with all men for months at a time. Brick asks Andy where his girlfriend is and he tells him that they broke up because he wanted to bang all the time.

Andy wants to get to bed, says Joel is sleeping at his place because he is between apartments, they head for the bed room and Andy makes Joel sleep on the floor because he is paranoid Brick would walk in. The next day Joel, Brick and Ned are sitting around talking about leave and Brick reveals that he loves whores and bought Andy a whore for his 13th birthday. Andy walks in and asks one of the greatest lines of the series...

Brick: Well, ask him yourself...

Andy: Ask me what?

Joel: How'd you like your hooker (said with a shit eating grin)

Andy explains to Joel in private that he couldn't do anything with the hooker. He begs Joel to keep the facade up for a few more days. Andy heads back outside and asks if the guys wanna hit up a club. Joel makes a reference to a gay club on Santa Monica but trails off before he can say the name. Joel says he isn't going out and Andy follows him to the bedroom to talk about how he can't go out by himself. Joel doesn't like pretending that he is straight anymore and wants Andy to just come out to his brother.

Andy talks to Brick on the couch, Ned is out on a walk and Brick asks about Andy's job at a condom store in West Hollywood. Talks about the "freaks" that come in for condoms that "sleep with other men". Andy doesn't see it as a problem and makes a comment about being stuck on a ship with a bunch of men. "you can't shoot the enemy if you're staring at your shipmates ass." Brick gets OVERLY DEFENSIVE about the comment saying he doesn't know anything about it. It gets awkward and Brick leaves to find Ned.

Andy realizes it's too hard to have Brick staying over and will ask him to leave in the morning. Back out in the living room Ned and Brick get ready for bed and we see the first real interaction between the two friends. Ned is upset. Brick explains that he can't tell his little brother that he is gay because Andy has been looking up to him since he was a little boy. Brick promises to make it up to Ned and kisses him.

The next morning Ned and Joel are talking in the kitchen. Ned is looking for the tea that Andy hid because he thought it would make him look "gay" to his brother. Joel asks Ned about having a girl at every port, he says he has a girlfriend but doesn't have a picture. Joel thinks its weird that he doesn't have a picture and figures out that Brick and Ned are dating. They want Andy and Brick to come out to eachother and devise a plan.

They return from their walk to find Ned and Joel drinking wine looking at an album. Joel is an "ink man" and says he gave Andy a tattoo of a heart on his ass. Ned suggests that he and Brick get hearts on their asses. Brick wants a battleship but said a bleeding heart witha dagger will be fine. He panics when Ned drops his pants. Joel heads to the car to find some ink in hopes that this will start the brothers coming out.

They talk about Andy's tattoo on his ass and how it hurt. Brick looks awkwardly at his wine and wants a beer. Ned and Joel return and decide it's time to be dramatic with the brothers. Ned says that they can get the tats when they are up in San Fransisco, Joel makes a comment on the Castro and how they were there. Ned follows saying that he and Brick spent some time ins Greenwich Village (should have used Chelsea but whatever) The brothers get tense and Ned and Joel say that they are in love and start making out... leaving the brothers in shock.

Joel then kisses Andy, Ned kisses Brick and the brothers stare at each other and exclaim, "You're gay!?"

The brothers have a heart to heart and say it will be an interesting Thanksgiving.

CAST
Andy .... Nicholas Gonzalez
Joel .... Eyal Podell
Brick ... Terry Simpson
Ned ..... Allen Cutler

I loved this episdoe. Re-watching it reminds me of a friend who is in a situation where he is preparing to come out to a friend at school. He is a little older than the guy he wants to come out to and is looking for that courage to come out to this guy, who means a lot to him. There has been some tension and certain situations they have been in where the friend has given him chances to come out and probably knows that he is gay, but wants my friend to come out. I really hope that after he watches this video it give him the courage I know he wants and needs. I also know how hard it is to come out to someone. I have been there. I came out and most of my friends that I am close with think it's a bigger deal than I did.

My best friend John, who I came out to as bi in high school, chose me to be his best man in his wedding. I was a part of the happiest day of his life. The night before the wedding, after the rehersal dinner he tells me that I am his best friend in the world and that we have stuck by eachother for so long. He is also happy and proud of me for being who I am and coming to a point in my life where I can accept who I am and just be me.

I still need to jump over the hurrdle of telling my family. I do know that my friend who is about to come out will appreciate the shout out and will see that a weight will be lifted off his shoulders.

I am in by no means saying that every person should come out after watching this video. Hell, I was scared to tell a lot of people. But I do know that there are fears out there that you won't be accepted. Everyone should do it when they feel they are ready. I am by no means a feminie acting gay guy at all. But I am comfortable with my close friends talking about liking guys and am honest about it. I think that NYC has helped me find my way to who I am with going out and meeting other guys. ANyway, I hope you enjoyed the video.