Fraternity Life

I recently had a guy who is in a fraternity down south get in touch with me. I am a reader of Closet frat Boy and really relate to a lot of his stories.

I have always been involved with my fraternity and now that I am the Alumni Association President I talk with my chapters President almost daily. He also happens to be in my family tree.

For those who don't know the Greek system... when you are pledging you are given a Big Brother who is supposed to help you out and be someone that you can go to and talk to about anything and everything. My Big's name was Tom and was Chapter President at the time.

It's a cool thing. I talk to 80% of the guys in my tree that have been initiated since 1999. It's really cool. My current roommate is my Little brothers, Little brother.

Now, I have been out of college now almost 5 years. That just sounds crazy to me. Since I am now back involved with the chapter as a leader I try not to hang out at frat parties. Yes, there are tons of hot college guys there and the one I have been to this year was a blast... I am older and try to keep my distance with that.

Anyway... Recently I was invited into a group of gay guys from my fraternity who are around the world. One of them has a small crush on me. He IMs me every night. Gave me his cell number to text. He's very friendly and wants me to come down to see him this summer.

We got on the subject of hot guys and he sends me these...

 A guy who in a chapter of my fraternity who posed for Sean Cody. (NSFW) I have had friends do porn but it's something like this that is hott.

Enjoy some hot guys as you wake up... or head to sleep... wherever you may be.

LT.. the real one

I have no words for what this NFL Great is doing...

Before I go...

I am heading to bed but wanted to leave something for all of you.

I saw this video on XTube. I have a fetish for straight guys. Straight guys who do gay porn intrigue me. They also turn me on... a LOT. Check out my crushes page.

I happen to look at XTube daily for hot videos and this popped up on my radar a few weeks ago and I have yet to share it with you. Here it is... enjoy it in all it's NSFW glory.



*If you watch the whole thing you will notice he is hard the entire time.

New Inspiration

I had a moment last week where my buddy Andy was bitching about work. See, he works at the network I used to work at. He's running into the same problem I was... no movement when it came to promotions. Women with larger breasts were getting them and he was not.

In television, this happens a lot.

I was once told that I had everything they wanted in someone for the position but went with someone with more experience. The girl who got the job, I had trained to photocopy and answer the phones. I was pissed. I got my revenge a few months later during a breaking news story...

I was doing my thing for my program and she was supposed to be doing something for her show and didn't know how to do certain things on a machine. her boss kept asking her for something to be done and she didn't know how to do it and was pretty much screwing the network. I was nearby, swooped in and saved the day.

When she asked me to show her what I did I kinda laughed on the inside. I got a great recommendation from her boss.

Anyway, Andy was complaining about his hours, which are roughly the same as mine now... 6pm-3am ET. He knew he could be better... he knew that he deserved better but there is no room to move around right now. He decided that he wants to move to Washington and just make something happen where he can be happy and have a good life. Even if it meant leaving the network. He doesn't worry about people saying, "Oh he left XYZ for this!?" He's doing it.

It got me thinking about why I have been such a Debbie Downer lately. I feel screwed with the hours that I work. One of the reasons why I started this blog is because I was working screwy hours at night, worked in television news and had some standby time that I needed to kill. It's evolved into what it is today. Mostly me bitching about life and doing a little bit about it.

True... since I started this blog I have had a lot happen in my life. Hour changes, two job offers and me taking one in Connecticut and even more hour changes.

I have an Emmy, MASSIVE amounts of job security thanks to the BILLIONS my company makes for our even more massive Parent company. I have my health and am taking Graduate Classes and am now living with a buddy of mine who is an awesome roommate.

I didn't take a job in Los Angeles for a reason. I was offered it, posted that I was going and ended up taking the Connecticut job for more money.

Where am I now?

Yes, I have all of this support, stuff going for me and I still feel like I could be doing more. Could be more creative.

I was talking with a buddy of mine who just finished working at Sundance. We have been talking about locking ourselves in a cabin for a long weekend and not leaving until we have some sort of script in our hands.

When I lived in NY I loved reading scripts, writing down ideas on the subway or sitting in the park daydreaming. I don't get to do much of that here in CT. I don't know why. I am going back to what I love.

After this semester, work won't be paying for school anymore because of "the economy"

This is a chance for me to do some writing and test the waters. There are some fellowships out there that I am interested in. Maybe it will turn out. Who knows.

All I know is that things are looking up, I have been rawking the gym harder than usual and since I decided on this I have been more excited than I have in a while.

Not According to Plan

Life throws curve balls... all the time.

I had a few flung at me on Saturday. It started early Saturday morning as I was leaving work at 3:30am. I got home. Finished some of my grad school work in Photoshop that I had to do and went to bed at 5:30 and woke up at 9am for class.

I know, I know... who takes a 9:30am class on a Saturday... I really wanted to get it out of the way.

Class was fine. There is this older man in my class who, at first wouldn't shut up about Dick Tracy and how the design of the villains are the greatest in all of the world of comics. He also said that the Drudge Report had amazing design and was the top journalism site on the web. A girl in my class who I know very well restrained me.

After class my buddy Chris took me out to lunch. His wife is back in Michigan because of a death in the family. We had an awesome lunch and ended back at his apartment where I said I would play him in one round of NHL 09. Before I did that I texted some of the guys I was going to be meeting up with in NY.

I ended up falling asleep after our first game, woke up at 6pm and had not heard back from anyone yet. I had to make a decision. A buddy from grad school texted me asking if I was going to the Hockey game tonight because he had Alumni club passes where it was all you could drink and eat. I got dressed headed to the game, thinking that if I heard from anyone I could leave the game, catch a train and be in the city by 1045/11pm.

No one texted me back. It was getting close to 9pm and I had to make another choice. Since I had not heard back from anyone in NY i decided to stay in CT.

It kinda got me bummed out because I wanted to go to NY but didn't want to be THAT GUY at the bar by myself. Granted I could probably make friends with some random group of guys but wasn't feeling up to it.

After the game I decided to go out to a bar with some friends who ended up paying the tab. They had asked me why I didn't have a date on Valentines day and it got a little emotional with questions and my friend's wife wanting to make me a match.com screen name.

That got me on a tirade about the last time I was on Match. Anyway... it wasn't too bad of a night. Realizing how UNFUN I have been lately. I do have my time at the gym to help me out.

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Manhattan Men

This one is for someone who said they were looking for a blog with naked men on it..


http://rjr10036.typepad.com/manhattan_men/

NSFW

 Hat tip to Fleshbot for the link.

There is a pic on the blog that has a naked man in a phone booth... I can remember making out in one of those over by POSH with some guy who tried to get me to go home with him and some random guy for a 3some. I declined.

NYC V-Day

I had no idea what I was going to do for V-Day this year. I never even thought about it until my friend Tony asked me what I was doing.

Tony has this mysterious boyfriend that he won't really tell me anything about other than his occupation and that he is not named Jesse. I decided to make the trek into NY by train and get drunk with some friends. Possibly find a meaningful one night relationship with someone to celebrate the 14th.

I am excited to see Tony before he takes off "for work" and to meet this mysterious boyfriend.

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Crushing

Valentines Day is approching. I promise I won't be negative.

There we go. That will make me feel positive about life. Eye candy can really brighten someones day for sure.

Valentines Day brings me to thinking about all the crushing I have been doing... and not acting.

I have way too many crushes going on at once.

Here's an Update:

Gym Crush- For those who are new, Gym Crush and I see eachother at the gym and it turns out that he is dating a girl I work with directly. We see each other around work, say hi and go on our ways. In the last month or so, when we are at the gym together he'll help me out with spotting or ideas to help get my heart rate up. His body is very similar to the UK Rugby player I have posted above. Seriously.

Work Crush- I recieved a birthday text from Work Crush. He said that we should get together soon now that our schedules are pretty much the same. We have this great Facebook flirting thing going on where he writes me messages abouyt random stuff. Although, he does tell me stories about his female conquests, a man had got to dream of getting a fine ass like his.

NY Frat Boy- He and I started talking over the summer. He lives in NYC and is obviously a Frat Boy in recovery. He's hillarious. He keeps me entertained when I am bored at work on AIM. He is a really good looking guy. How could I resist an Italian Frat Boy eh? Well, what sucks is that he lives further away from me. One night he complained about how much it sucks that I am far away. When I end up back in NYC I gotta make this happen.

CT Frat Boy- This CT Frat Boy is kinda new. I met him while he was working at a bar here in town. He is a grad student, but a member of my rival fraternity from back in the day. He is an awesome guy. Fit, fun, Italian, the whole 9 yards. I get mixed signals from  him. He asks me to hang out whenever I see him. Which is a good thing.

The last time I went into the bar I was with a group of guys who are alumni from my fraternity. We had our Alumni Assoc. meeting to talk about a golf tournament and setting up a memorial fund for my friend who killed himself back in November. When we sat down, CTFB came over to be our waiter. He went around the table and when he got to me he said, I already know what you want.

"Oh really? What do I want?" He said my order to a T. He remembered my order the last time he was my waiter from about 3 weeks ago. I was impressed. I have a good feeling with this one.

Yalie- Ahh one of the more recent crushes I have. We text back and forth about college basketball. I asked him bluntly, "When are we gunna hang out again man?" and go no responce. Oh well.

Blond Guy- Blond guy is new. I have seen him around once or twice around work but have not really ever said anything to him. Since I have switched shifts I see him around a lot more. He is WASPY hot. Even though he is 26 years old, he will be the fit father you see walking around one day wearing all JCrew that you just wish would go gay for one night.

He is obviously very straight, after some facebook stalking. He played football in college. Tigh end. Seriously.

So those are some crushes and some updates on them. Let's hope that one turns out to be a good one.

Catching up with JP

- John Mayer, also from CT, is adorable.


- Now that it's out of the way HI! How are all of you?

I am fine after the crash. I have my car back and only had about $1800 worth of damage done to my Jeep. Not bad considering.

After my last posting, a lot of Anonymous comments were made about my negativity. Justin wrote about that topic not to long ago as well. It's not that big of a deal to me when someone leaves an Anonymous comment. Is it a friend who stumbled upon the blog and doesn't want me to know that they read?

I really don't care. You took the time to comment on what I am writing so Thank you.


I have been taking a lot of my negative energy and putting it here in my blog. Yes, I have been negative. This is my outlet to complain and think situations out using words.

I am trying to be positive in my life. The last few months have been hard. Know this, I will try and not complain as much.