I have this dilemma. This guy Erik is a "friend" of mine. We met, well online. I was still living in CT and commuting to NYC and we started chating in a chat room one night while I was bored. He seemed like a really cool guy and after about a month of chatting I wanted to meet up because I knew he wasn't a psycho that would have killed me. Anyway, he ditched out on me. Never showed up and was just really dissappointing. We still talk and its funny that we are still chat friends.
Anyway, one of his ex-boyfriends is a myspace friend of his. He was a lacrosse player in college and is a good looking guy... he works in New York and has a house in Westchester.... seems like he makes some solid dough. Anyway, I find him attractive and I have said a few things playfully to Erik about him but, I don't know if I should even persue trying to talk to his ex. Even though I am attracted to pictures and his myspace page I kind it a little pathetic to be attracted to him but also see the qualities of being a fun attractive and succesfull gay man that is still a straight acting guy.
There is a guy I was friends with in college (I was his Community Advisor) who has a gay brother who lives in the city. He has a boyfriend now, and I also find him attractive (are we seeing a pattern here?)
Is this just a cry for more gay friends in New York? I think that I am trying to find someone that is like me and in a similar situation? I don't know... I guess this is what the blog is for.
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Why does no one comment on my blog? Come on guys seruiously.. I know you guys are reading.