Justin posted an entry tonight and I read it after talking to him briefly while covering a shift at work. For those who do not read Justin's blog, you should. He and I are in the same point in life and it's scary how alike we are in certain circumstances. We are both sporty and all around good guys and somehow we are single and hate hearing from people that we will "find someone" and that we just need to wait.
Any kind of function where I need to bring a date can get depressing. My best friends wedding was a perfect example. I had a lot to do as Best Man so I was somewhat distracted, but a wedding atmosphere is somewhere anyone single can start to get that lonely feeling.
My good friend B started crying at the bar we were at from emotion and alcohol about how he sleeps around and just wants to find someone to settle down with. It was rather comical, but I felt for him and felt the same way.
Friday night I poured out a LOT of emotion to my friend Shane who lives in Boston. He recently broke up with his boyfriend, but still lives with him. It's messy. Shane and I met in college and he tells me all the time that he thinks I am very attractive and while he was dating his boyfriend would tell me that if he were single he would have made a move on me. Deep down I was jealous of Shane. He has a better body, got the cute guys I wanted and had the boyfriend.
We are at different points in life now and I value his opinion. We talked about me, what is going on inside my head a a lot of the shit (lack of a better word) that has been floating around in my head. I am a LOT better today, and now know how focused I need to be in life and I know where I want to go and what I need to do to get there. It's going to take a lot, but I am starting to see clear.
Justin and I will one day attend a wedding, with dates. Until that day comes, where we meet someone that each of us is happy with, we just need to focus on ourselves. Improve what we need to and strive to reach goals.